Thursday, May 29, 2008

on thee phone

so0o im multi tasking right now.. im on the phone wit tha do0de who hurt me and im thinking to myself whyy?!
all he is doing is distractin me.
cuhs i still gotta finish my other finals paper and project...

but luckily i can type fast! =] 60wpm wo0hoo damnn proud of myself!

in this convo im having with him he says

"He say, He wished he coulda met a girl like me earlier in Life. Why didn't he know me before. But I say, You never knew a girl like me existed."

That means:: I came too late =[ ;; and he was missin out on the good stuff like me!


im still hurt.. because it sucks knowing the only guy who can stop me from crying and hurtin me is the ones thats doing it to me

quote!

"What's the point of dreaming, if you don't dream big ?"


n0w thiink about that!

AMANDLA

well after writting my final i figure its best to write this last entry well maybe not last but i figure to write this entry on amandla.
why?
because i felt that in Amandla there music is very powereful and have a significant meaning to it.
i compared Amandla music to my music that i listen to and its nowhere near close!

what i found was intresting that today modern music always talk about the same stuff..
LoVE
CHEATERS
HURT
GANG
DRUGS
H0ES
&&BiTCHES
^^ no offense


but thats h0w music are and n0w and days
in order for it to be successfull it gotta be a club hit ya kno..
but see thats kind of sad that young kids actually listen to these music and be infulence by them..
well in Amandla they are influence by them but in a good wayy...

respect;loyalty& tru love goes..

Respect, Loyalty and true love all go together! One no greater than the other, neither of the 3 can stand alone!



Respect is BIG, most of us know what it is. But few of us truly understand what it means. Respect shows character, when someone has respect for their BF/GF theres just certain things he or she wont do! (Ex. My good friend once told me, You love your mom... but do you respect her? Would you curse around your mom.. Would you lie to your mom?) Think about it though.. We all have much LOVE for our mother or father.. but ONLY a rare few of us "Respect them to the fullest", A person would f**k you up over their mother, but sure as hell curse or disrespect their mom. And thats my point exactly, to truly LOVE someone there must be RESPECT first. Now ask yourself, Do you love your Man or Woman




Loyalty ... wow, We all have an idea as to what "loyalty" means. But again I ask you my friend, "Are you a Loyal person" -PAUSE- Before answering this question.
Can you be put in a tempting situation and survive the test of time? Can you argue/fight with your GF/BF and not talk for months and still remain faithful.. haha -PLEASE TAKE YOUR TIME- Then answer that one. Can you be trusted thousands and thousands of miles away? Common once said in a song "Faithful to the end" Could you be faithful to the end, through thick & thin, the ups & downs, the rumors, the lies that people whisper in your ear? In the grand scheme of things what Im trying to say is loyalty is a commitment to someone, we do live in a sinful world.. a world of trickery and evil wrong doing. But if you can fight through the pitfalls set by mankind & remain loyal to your situation you are certainly worthy of calling yourself "Loyal". Remember ONLY the STRONG survive. i want whoever's reading this blog to let that soak ... again "Only the STRONG survive"



True love is composed of so many things. True has you nervous & on edge, because your ALL is in it... And by far am I an advocate for putting your all into something. But, True love requires 2 people, both party's playing the role of car parts with ONE GOAL and thats to move. True love can not be mistaken, i promise you.. It is a feeling like no other. The devil is hell couldnt distract "true love". True love is beautiful, everyone wants or would like to have it, its so beautiful that it can make a person's "soul" pretend like a story that they dont want to end. Last Im going to leave you with this.. "We walk and stand and .. we fall in it, with the right companion we all in it" - Common "Love is"




-In the end its a place i got to be

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

REAL CHOP!

"Sometimes it just takes patience for everything to happen. You won't get respect in just one day, you can't be in love with someone that you just met & you won't be able to forgive yourself in a second. I've learned that helping people is good, but helping someone too much won't let them grow. You grow by making mistakes, getting hurt, & learning from your regrets.Thoughts are there to help guide you to your decision. It's you that have to take that first step into the pathway of happiness. It's your doing that makes you who you are. Don't assume; get your fact straight. THAT IS WHAT MESSES UP A LOT OF PEOPLE. There's always the true story & reasoning behind everything. We are all different, but have one thing in common; we all want happiness. It is like we're all trying to fight for it, trying to get what we want & it makes us forget the whole reason why we wanted it in the first place. Nobody said life is going to be easy; life is what you make of it. Change for the better; don't change for someone else. Change for yourself. Don't be selfish. Don't limit yourself from doing things just because you don't think you can make it through. REMEMBER -- time isn't going to wait for you, so make the best of it."

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rhythyms of resistance

on this video notes::
I remember everything they do for example singing and dancing has a symbolic meaning and msg to it. it could be hatred; love; anger etc...
although i didnt understand it i felit like i did. because of how they was singing it. i felt there passion for it. even little kids was singing and dancing to it. i can recall i remmebr they was singing a song about white ppl . liek talking down on there but yet they still work for them.. because they need the money to feed their family..


heres a video that you can check out..


click playyy

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

video ahhaha!

made my dayyy!


y0uu kno whattttt

now that I'm thinking about it...

I'm way too nice for a person...

*sighs*

maybeee

I'm not as strong as I thought I was...

You would think, after the 2600763920th time breaking up, I would be completely fine, and move on as quickly as I could. Well, fuck that idea. I just want to crawl into a hole and cry, and hell, die too. The only thing I'm  looking forward to this year is moving out.

I just want summer to come right now. That way I can probably work to death.....

Thursday, May 22, 2008

john hanson=the first black president???

ii was thinking and this is what i found out that had my mind confused and intrigue.

What is on the Back of the Two Dollar Bill?
The back of the $2 bill has an engraving of the signing of the Declaration of Independence. In the image is a man who has dark skin and wearing a powdered wig while sitting at the table just to the left of the men standing in the center of the engraving. This dark skinned man is John Hanson in his position as president of the continental congress.
In the original painting hanging in the U.S. Capitol Rotunda, the dark skinned man does not appear!!!

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A "Black" Man, A Moor, John Hanson
Was the First President of the United States! 1781-1782 A.D.???
George Washington was really the 8th President of the United States!
George Washington was not the first President of the United States. In fact, the first President of the United States was one John Hanson. Don't go checking the encyclopedia for this guy's name - he is one of those great men that are lost to history. If you're extremely lucky, you may actually find a brief mention of his name.

The new country was actually formed on March 1, 1781 with the adoption of The Articles of Confederation.

This document was actually proposed on June 11, 1776, but not agreed upon by Congress until November 15, 1777. Maryland refused to sign this document until Virginia and New York ceded their western lands (Maryland was afraid that these states would gain too much power in the new government from such large amounts of land).

Once the signing took place in 1781, a President was needed to run the country. John Hanson was chosen unanimously by Congress (which included George Washington). In fact, all the other potential candidates refused to run against him, as he was a major player in the revolution and an extremely influential member of Congress.

As the first President, Hanson had quite the shoes to fill. No one had ever been President and the role was poorly defined. His actions in office would set precedent for all future Presidents.
He took office just as the Revolutionary War ended. Almost immediately, the troops demanded to be paid. As would be expected after any long war, there were no funds to meet the salaries. As a result, the soldiers threatened to overthrow the new government and put Washington on the throne as a monarch.

All the members of Congress ran for their lives, leaving Hanson as the only guy left running the government. He somehow managed to calm the troops down and hold the country together. If he had failed, the government would have fallen almost immediately and everyone would have been bowing to King Washington. In fact, Hanson sent 800 pounds of sterling siliver by his brother Samuel Hanson to George Washington to provide the troops with shoes.
Hanson, as President, ordered all foreign troops off American soil, as well as the removal of all foreign flags. This was quite the feat, considering the fact that so many European countries had a stake in the United States since the days following Columbus.
Hanson established the Great Seal of the United States, which all Presidents have since been required to use on all official documents.
President Hanson also established the first Treasury Department, the first Secretary of War, and the first Foreign Affairs Department.
Lastly, he declared that the fourth Thursday of every November was to be Thanksgiving Day, which is still true today.

The Articles of Confederation only allowed a President to serve a one year term during any three year period, so Hanson actually accomplished quite a bit in such little time.
Six other presidents were elected after him - Elias Boudinot (1783), Thomas Mifflin (1784), Richard Henry Lee (1785), Nathan Gorman (1786), Arthur St. Clair (1787), and Cyrus Griffin (1788) - all prior to Washington taking office.

So what happened?
Why don't we ever hear about the first seven Presidents of the United States?
It's quite simple - The Articles of Confederation didn't work well. The individual states had too much power and nothing could be agreed upon.
A new doctrine needed to be written - something we know as the Constitution.
And that leads us to the end of our story.
George Washington was definitely not the first President of the United States. He was the first President of the United States under the Constitution we follow today.
And the first seven Presidents are forgotten in history. Letters To Dick regarding
Hanson

My notes:
We don't utilize our sources.. we rely on media.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

[L0VE] still friends.


-- [in my eyes]... it's when i'm a better person when i'm with him, when i make better decisions because he's there. it's when i know everything about him, the things nobody else knows, the things that he doesn't even know about himself. it's when we grow up & mature & change, not separately, but together. it's when i wanna give him everything i have, my world. it's when i wanna do things for him just to see him smile. it's when no matter how bad things get, i can see his face and forget all my problems. it's when we fight, but i still can't stop thinking about him. it's when i find myself randomly smiling because i'm thinking of him & all the things he does. it's when we have complete trust in one another. it's when we can do nothing at all & still have fun because we're together. it's when the little things he does & says mean more than the big things. it's when i'm with him & i'm the happiest i have ever been. it's when i wanna change all my ways so he can be happy. it's when i wanna be there for him everytime he's upset, stressed or mad. it's when i wanna be the shoulder he can cry on anytime he wants. it's when i want him to be my everything & i want to be his. it's when i get butterflies in my stomach when i'm around him. he lights up my life. it's [true love]. ♥ YET still friends. till this very dayy :(
© C H E R R Y S O V A N N 2008

the truth..

Has a day ever felt like an eternity to you?
Well it has for me. Practice what u preach right? Well thats so much easier said than done... I want to live each day to the fullest of my ability, I want to take life for all it's worth, I never EVER want to live according to ANYONE'S expectations, I want to never forget that I am in control of my own happiness, I want to live life knowing that life's greatest gift is life itself but why does it seem like sometimes the best things to want in life are soooo damn hard to attain??? Why does it seem like when things are going exactly how I want them to be it all comes crumbling down and all that Ive built up for myself is back to nothing at all..... Is it a lesson that I am supposed to learn? Have I forgotten to give love to those who have so loyally given to me? Whatever it is I find myself now in spirit on my knees begging for that warmth to return to my soul and the fullness to come once again into my heart... I'm sorry to me because I have lost you and let you down.


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Monday, May 19, 2008

My AUNTiE WEDDiN THiS WEEkeN

CONGRATS AUNTiE! WELCOME UNCLE TED TO THEE FAMiLY!


i HAd so0 so0 much fun!
finally my aunt got married after 10 years! sheeesh
i really dont kne what the hold up was but they have 3 beautiful kids.
here are some pics and i hope you enjoy it.
the theme was a chinese theme because her husband was chinese




Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Things a man should do

Do you ever wish you could go back in time and change things that has happened in your past that you aren't happy about.....Or....do you wonder if the one you've once loved could ever change the way they are and better themselves....Don't you just wish that if you could snapped your fingers everything will be just right with the world.......Why is it soo hard to take care of someone you love with all of your heart and soul and show them everyday that you appreciate him/ her in ways that make them smile to the point that they get butterflies in their stomach.....or make them breakfast in bed with a rose, massage my body from head to toe just becuase he likes my smooth skin, kiss me all over in the right spots that get me going, hold my hand, hug me, cuddle late night just becuase he loves being close to me, take me out shopping, spend some money on me even though he knows I've got $$$, wine and dine me....all the nice things a real woman should have....But don't get it twisted it does go both ways.... if you agree.....
&& ii thought this picture is funnyy

Look on the brighter side of things...

A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee...
You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.
A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her.
She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up.
She was tired of fighting and struggling.
It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen.
She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire.
Soon the pots came to boil.
In the first, she placed carrots, in the second, she placed eggs, and in the last, she placed ground coffee beans.
She let them sit and boil, without saying a word.
In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners.
She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl.
She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl.
Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.
Turning to her daughter, she asks, ’Tell me what you see.’’Carrots, eggs, and coffee,’ she replied.
Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots.
She did and noted that they were soft.
The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it.
After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg.
Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee.
The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma.
The daughter then asked, ’What does it mean, mother?’
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.
The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting.
However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.
The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.
The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
’Which are you?’
She asked her daughter.’
When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond?
Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?’
Think of this: Which am I?
Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?
Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat?

Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a break-up, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff?

Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?Or am I like the coffee bean?

The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor.

If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level.
How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can’t go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you’re the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

FED UP *WARNING* RATED R DTRONG WORDS

K THIS BLOG IS KINDA PERSONAL BUT HEY IMMA PUT IT OUT THERE..

I DONT CARE WHO READS IT ITS JUS ME AND HOW I FEEL.. PPL ESPECIALLY FEMALES ARE STARTING TO PISS ME OFF!!


REAL TALK!DAYG0 iS SO FULL OF FAKE ASS FEMALESWH0 ARE NUTiN BUT H0ES!!!! i DONT GET WHY THEY G0TTA BE FAKE!!!DAMN....Y0U D0NT LiKE ME? SHiT D0NT SMiLE iN MAH FACE THEN TURN AROUND AND TALK ALL Y0 SHiT! DA FUNNY THiNG iS YALL BiCTHES THiNK iM ST00PiD 0R SUMTiN!!!COZ LiTTLE D0 YALL KN0 iM UP 0N GAME WiT THiS SHit!!!!Y0U SMiLE AT ME'....YEAH iMMA SMiLE BACK AND SAY Hi BAkk BUT MY SMiLES iS JES AS FAKE AS Y0URS!!! i AINT G0T RESPECT F0R N0 FEMALE iN DAYG0 EXCEPT MY FRiENDS 0F COURSE AND i KEEP My CiRCLE REALLLLLLLLLLY SMALL YALL KN0 WH0 Y0U ARE!!!!MY RiDE OR DIES!!!!

MY DUDES: ARENT YALL TiRED OF EM!!!WHY WHEN Y0U MEET EM THEY TELL Y0U SUMTiN C0ME T0 FiND OUT EVERYTHING THEY T0LD YAH WAS A LiE THEN Y0U FiND 0UT THIS BiTCH IS A H0E AHAHAHAHAHA


YUPP WE KN0W WH0 THEM FAKE BEEZIIES BE N THEY BEST WATCH THEY BACK 0R BETTA YET WATCH WHAT THEY SAYIN CUZ SHIT ALWAYS COMES BACK TO US...WE KN0W EVERYTHING...THEM BIITCHES R S0000 FAKE N SCANDAL0US ITS SAD...ITS AIGHT TH0UGH... WE KN0W WE REAL SHITT...KEEP THAT CIRCLE TIGHT... YUPPERS!!!!


NO OFFENSE I MEAN IF YOU GET PERSONALLY HURT BY THIS THEN DONT READ IT. I JUS HAD TO EXPRESS MYSELF WITH THIS ANGER ALL UP IN ME. ITS NOT GOOD TO HOLD IT IN SOO IMMA LET IT OUT!!..

AND BY THA WAY I GOT RESPECT FOR YOU UNTIL YOU LOSE IT!

RESPECT TO ALL THE GROWN WOMAN WHOS OUT THERE AND RELLY ABOUT SUMTHIN GOTHER THAN SEELING THERE BODY

WORLD COMING TO AN END?

**CHERRY w0rld news **UPDATE ON WHATS GOIN ON
dA wORLd is cOmin tO an End???
wTf is gOin On..
eARthwake in chiNa [12,000 killed]
t0rnAtO iN okLahoMa [20+ killed]
cyCLone iN Myanmar [20,000+ killed]
and now fiRes iN fLORida...
all thiS in less dan a wEek
now tornato threat in st. Louis. and oklahoma agen!
whATs nExt? stay tuned for chERRY woRld nEws! =]

LIVING THE LIFE IN THE HOOD

EVERY MORNING I KIDD Y0U N0T!
MY NEIGHBORS ARE MY ALARM CLOCK
WIT THEIR LOUD BUTTS!
ALWAYS ARGUIN ALWAYS FIGHTIN.
IF THA POLICE DONT COME WITHIN A WEEK TO THA HOUSE SUMTHING IS WRONG.
IT WOULD BE AMAZIN IF THE POLICE DIDNT..
BUT THATS WHAT I GET FOR LIVIN IN THA HOOD. SE SAN DIEGO BLOODS!
IM USE TO THE AREA. SOME PPL MIGHT BE SCARED OR HEAR BADD STUFF BUT HEY THATS LIFE. IM USE TO THE SHOOTING, THE VIOLENCE, THE GANG, THE DRUGS, THE SIRENS, THE KILLING. ITS LIFE ESPECIALLY LIVING IN MY AREA....BUT SEE FOR ME IM ABOVE THEE INFLUENCE. I TEND TO AVOID MYSELF IN ANY BAD SITUATION AROUND THERE AND GO TO A GETAWAYY TO MY FRIENDS HOUSE OR WORK SCHOOL. SOMETIME SCHOOL IS BETTER THAN BEING AT HOME.

ONE OF THESE DAYS IM GOING TO MOVE MY FAMILY OUT INTO A NICE AREA.
MARK MY WORDS! I CANT BE HAVIN MY LITTLE COUSINS RUNNING AROUND IN THAT AREA. WORRIEDD FOR THEIR LIFE.

SOON I WILL POST Y0UU AN VIDEO F MY NEIGHBORS...

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

ViDEO iN CLASS 05-06-08

The weather today is cloudy and a slight drizzle and sprinkle.. RAiN RAiN go awwayy!! lol
but as i walkk in class today (late) they was in the middle of watching a movie. i was intrigue by this video. it took place in the U.S while nelson mendela was a great leader to his african american. they were talking about the songs and diffrents songs they would sing for diffrent event. The balcks were treated less than human and were force to keep moving because of the white. it was sad to see that the domestic workers and the men and woman that were working for not enough pay not even worth a day pay, im guessin less then 5 bucks a day. the work that they did would involve them catchin the TRAiN to the urban area and would keep diggin as miners to find gold. mann i dont think i could ever do that. but who knows if i have to support my family then maybe i just might.. we havent finish the movie yet but hopefully next class we can.

TO BE CONTINUE...